04 mars 2004

which L WORD character are you?

you? i don't know. me? i don't know either.

but of course i do, hehe. kidding. well, it's simple. i think i'm a little bit of everyone.

we're so hooked on this new showtime network series called THE L WORD which the cast disclaims (is there such a word?) as 'not the lesbian counterpart of QUEER AS FOLK. and yes, it's not, but yes, it also is.

L WORD is about a group of lesbian friends in los angeles and QUEER AS FOLK is about a group of gay friends in pittsburgh. since women tend to be more inclined towards the drama side of life, and lesbians somehow have PhDs on being authentic melodrama queens, the L WORD show is full of stories with lots and lots of nice subplots, which to me is so cool. as a scriptwriter, i don't like movies or tv shows with characters that are not complex and multi-dimensional. not that i'm saying that QAF is not like that. QAF centers more on a different aspect of being homosexual. and of course, because they\'re men, gay guys basically dance to a different beat somehow. of course the same gender distinctions apply to lesbians and gays ano, because we are still women and they are still men. in short, LWORD is much more of a chillout music type of show while QAF is more on the electronica/techno beat. ganun ang takbo ng mga kuwento, at actually, ganun din ang pacing ng shows. as in. techno and chillout.

but back to the LWORD. who am i? a little of everyone nga. well, except maybe dana, that tennis player who is kinda uptight about being out, but she is so darn gay naman anyway, kaya nakakatawa siya. ganun ba ko? hindi naman, kasi out naman ako, at hindi naman ako uptight, di ba? (objections? email moi!) well, come to think of it, there was this one episode during my premiere productions days when i really denied being lesbian. maybe because the way it was asked was offensive. yun siguro. but after that, oks na ko.

i guess i am like alice, the bisexual writer, except that the comparison is on the writer side, not the bisexual side. because i know i definitely will not go back to men, ngi. no offense guys, but my guy days are over, and that's final. so there.

and so, am i like bette, the character that jennifer 'flashdance' beals plays? A-type personality, strong, kinda ambitious? hm... maybe when i was in premiere, i was kinda like that, but it's just a different ballgame here. you tend to get tired of the corporate run-arounds and ekeks, so i don't think i am like that anymore. persevering, yes, but workaholic? hm, hindi yata ako yon. focused, yes, but not workaholic. that's different.

so am i bette's 7-year partner, tina? the blond girl who looked familiar it turns out she played this butch randy girl in the 1994 film THE INCREDIBLY TRUE ADVENTURES OF TWO GIRLS IN LOVE. hahaha she has grown up! kakaiba. pero no, i don't think i'm like her in most ways. maybe i can relate to being the homey wifey ek thing, because i played that role when i was freelancing last year when we moved to our new apartment. but that's it, i guess.

so that leaves us with marina, the european-bred of the lot. hm, i wish i were like her, speaking fluent french and italian. considering that i learned the basics of those languages years ago, hm, i could still be marina...pero naman, i don't think i am like her. malakas ba ang dating ko? well, yes, as a professor once described me. hmmmm, i wonder why my "arrive" is "strong" for her? heheh. but that's about it with the marina comparisons.

so ako si jenny? fiancée of tim, the guy kapitbahay of bette and tina. jenny falls for marina and they have a clandestine thingie, but i don't know what's gonna happen to them now. ewan. maybe i'm jenny because like her, i'm a fictionist hahaha pero hanggang doon lang po at maraming salamat, because when i first explored the sapphic side of my sexuality, i did not come running back to men just to weigh things out like jenny's doing. at nagpakasal pa sila ni tim sa vegas! kalokah! ewan.

so ako ba si kit, the character played by pam grier? hahaha oo kasi pareho kaming mahilig sa r&b grooves hehehe. pero seriously, i don't know pa nga if her character is lesbian, but definitely, i can relate to some family angsts going on there...

and that leaves us with shane na lang, which, before, maybe, yeah, kinda, reminds me of me back in, uh, late 1990s, when the world was crazy and my friends were engaging in threesome sex trysts and they kept on inviting me and i always decline (i perform better with a solo audience, i think hihihi) and the lesbian bar scene here was booming because of regular exclusive women dance parties and then there's third dimension and then there's UP Sappho and then nakpil is not yet populated by the makati bourgeoisie and poseurs started haunting remedios circle and the lgbt movement was still wreaking havoc in bohemian malate and pride marches were really something to be proud of, truly, and women singer-songwriters were not sellouts back then and i still can drink 6 shots of tequila and drive home by 4am from malate to qc without a hitch and there were many women who wanted to explore things with other women, promise, and i think i was one of them, syempre, and so i did, and there's the past. but i\'m not the 'i don't do relationships' girl, but i remember saying that to some stalkers hahaha just to ward them off, i think. it worked, by the way. hehe. sama ko.

but that's so '90s. today, iba na ang buhay, iba na ang movement, iba na ang mga batang biyaning, iba na ang kalikasan, at iba na ako. fun pa rin naman, still writing, but not as flimsy and kaladkarin as before, although i have to tell you, i kinda miss that sometimes. but that's okay. sometimes, there are more fun things in life than that. kaya ayun.

hm, maybe that's why i love this show very much. i relate with everyone. yeah, even tim, when he found out about the betrayal. i kinda know how that feels. it sucks. and of course it's no excuse na girl and kinalantari ng jowa niya. betrayal is still betrayal, and kawawa siya... to a certain extent.

oh well. it's so funny lang. i'm starting to spread the word about THE L WORD here at the office. and i hope people like it. heck, they loved QAF nga eh, di ba? hihi. la lang. we'll see...

nice site http://www.thelwordonline.com/. come visit.

and if i don't get to say it pala next week, HAPPY WOMEN\'S DAY ON MARCH 8!!!