catching up is hard to do

too bad that greek god quiz result didn't show up here. how come in other blogs you can put up these links and stuff? hm, must be some techie glitch, is all. hope i can still do that here in the future, because i also want to put here the result of the quiz "what angelina jolie character are you" hehe. guess who i am -- freaking gia! well, it's the lesbian part that did the trick there hehe. but i wanted to be lara croft! aw man! >:) hmmm, does that mean i am an openly non-apologetic bisexual supermodel candidate who has a tendency to be addicted to drugs? i hope not! hehe.

it's half past three in the hot scorching metro manila afternoon of this mild-mannered sunday here in the only catholic country in asia known as the philippines, or as the fil-ams call it, "P.I." adding the islands word. what time is it in your mindsphere?

but of course i will be like "blogging in the USA" here because as i discovered, the server of this blog is in the US, and thus there\'s a 12-hour delay. so as i'm writing this at 3.30pm, it's just like 3am or something there, so that's the time that this blog will reflect. kinda weird, isn't it? it's like i don't exist in real-time here. wow. that's a concept!

so as i try to update this blog, i am also trying to update my life. and my mp3 collection with THE L WORD music. yeah, season one is over but i really like the songs there, very chillout as i said in an earlier entry. but lately, i find myself missing that gay-thump-thump that emmet said he missed in QUEER AS FOLK. well, i'm missing that, too, that's why i am also downloading some thumping songs from the US version OST. also to be part of my nek's dj wannabee collection for our fantasy dance party here at home. hehe fantasy because we've been talking about it, lining up the music, thinking of stuff we will serve, but there's still no time or date for it. so it remains as such -- a fantasy. for now, that is. but hey, i still would love to dance!!!!!!!!!!!!! because i miss doing that.

so, to update my life, let's see. it's already may, so that means my birthmonth just passed, which means i just turned 31. freaking early 30s!!! that truly validates that i am no longer part of generation x. my, my, coupland, how time flies, eh? one moment you're wallowing in existential angst thinking of what life path you want to take as you "use and abuse" your gorgeously fit i-can-eat-anything-and-not-gain-weight mid-twenties body, the next moment you find yourself in the comfort of your complex life decisions while wondering why your butt is slowly showing the calories of last night's dinner. in short, you grow up.

but is it time to be adults now? could be, who knows, as tony sang. life changes fast that sometimes it's impossible to catch up with it. but you do manage to get along, experiencing some changes yourself, noticing the nuances of change all around you -- your family, friends, your work, how you have fun. they all change. no matter how we don't want them to change, they still do. they still do.

so what's a girl got to do? first, stop referring to your self (yourself? grammar police, help!) as a girl, but more as a woman. ugh, sounds so adult, doesn't it? don't you just hate it when people on the streets or in the stores now refer to you as "ma'am" instead of "miss"? i mean, what did i miss? hmm.

well, whatever. changes happen whether you like it or not. the thing to decide on is if you are willing to change along. or maybe it's better to choose the things that you want to change, and cherish those you want not to change. i can live with that. so can you.