testing lang

to see what's up here

geym adik, mtrcb ++

call us game addicts. pc games, that is. me naman, arcade downloads, free demo games. i'm searching for the code or cracked version of BETTY'S BEER BAR, this simply stupid game where a voluptuous girl named betty has ambitions of owning an island in the caribbean so she works in a bar serving beer to save up 33,000 dollars yata (US) to buy that island. so ayun. wala, cute siya eh, natutuwa ako sa simplicity. saka sa kuwento.

on the other hand, m is hooked on the HARRY POTTER 2 game again, rediscovering all the secret hidden places in hogwarts etc. haaay, when's the next HP game coming out na??? nasasawa na ko sa sounds ng HP2. paging greenhills game pirates...

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in other news, wala pa pala kaming president. who the fuck cares? all presidents are rich landed elitist bigots who cannot define human rights properly and has one ear perma-glued to the doors of the catholic church anyway. i just say -- elect the darned person and let's get on with our advocacy and strategize on how we will remove that perma-glue for the next couple of years or so. and pray that the next chief will not suffer from attention/intelligence deficit syndrome.

asa pa.

hopeless na ba? no, not hopeless. just realistic. as an advocate in the media industry, yeah, i know. realistic.

just take a look at this bit of news na lang eh. forwarded by someone from the task force pride mailing list. excerpts below.

'The Buzz' scolded for airing lesbian 'wedding'
| May 22, 2004 | Inquirer News Service

THE MOVIE and Television Review and Classification Board (MTRCB) has
warned the Sunday show biz talk show, "The Buzz," for airing the
"wedding" of a lesbian couple.

The MTRCB chair said "lesbian relationships are an abnormality of human
nature."

Kris Aquino defended their show's airing of the episode.

"I've always believed that whoever you're having a relationship with is
your personal choice," Kris said, pointing out that there are lesbian
relationships that are \"monogamous, supportive and loving."

A memorandum dated May 21, 2004 and signed by MTRCB Chair Marissa
Laguardia pointed out that "The Buzz," being aired on prime time, is
watched by youngsters "who are at their most impressionable stage."

"Their young minds are easily affected, so that to show lesbian lovers on
TV programs and give them media exposure would give young viewers the
impression that it is perfectly normal to get into lesbian or homosexual
relationships," the MTRCB statement said.

"We are certain that you are aware that lesbian and homosexual
relationships are an abnormality of human nature," said the statement.
"To show such kind of abnormality/aberration on prime time TV programs
gives the impression that the network is encouraging lesbian and
homosexual relationships and tantamount to saying lesbianism and
homosexuality are alright."


can i, like, bitch-slap that chair?

so is it okay to watch a former president's daughter cry like a kulangsapansin gel because thistalksshowhostformerlyknockedupbyamarriedactor got some std from a philandering married mayor of some city who fathered a brood of panganay children? er, are those the pg-13 rated values we want our children to learn, instead of two people celebrating their love? (the footage was of the marriage between lesbians elaine and her jowa). so what if the celebration of love was between two women? better to educate the children about ACCEPTANCE, UNDERSTANDING and TOLERANCE, di ba? unless we are training them to be no-brainer politician-actors in the future. tama, the story of joey and kris and alma nga ang panoorin nyo. fotah.

hopeless? or realistic? take your pick. lalaro muna ko betty's beer bar.

aloha mora!

harping for hermione

forgive me for saying this. this might appear too d.o.m.-ish or something like that, but that hermione girl is growing up to be one hot gal! as in!

seen the promo pix for HARRY POTTER AND THE PRISONER OF AZKABAN lately? you should! grabeh. pretty pretty girl, that hermione, especially when she doesn't have eye make-up or when photographed with 3/4 profile view or when she's not smiling so much and has that intense look on her face. just lovely.

gosh, i'm sooooo gay, as the girls in THE L WORD said. hehe. sabi rin ni m. pero nung nakita rin nya sabi nya 'potah gandah.' hehe.

we're sooooo gay. hehe.



the thought is weird, being attracted to someone who was born in freaking 1990, di ba! e student number ko kaya yun sa peyups! hehe. bad. pedophilic. or lolita-ish. hm, is that concept applicable to women loving women, too? potah, tanda ko nah!

wala lang. i was actually going to write about something else here as a result of my ICT week day ekek in dusit hotel, especially mentioning that jerkazoid who wants to protect the communication rights of the unborn. (whatdafolk!) but when i saw the teaser posters of HP3 atop those bus waiting sheds along edsa, man! blew my mind off when i saw that deep midnight blue background silvery font photo featuring hermione only, with hair kinda flowing in the wind and all. i think that was somewhere across sm megamall. basta baybayin nyo ang edsa at tignan! man, she looked sooo hot! grabeh.




basta ha, this kid is growing up to be something else! unlike the boys! lalo na si draco! amfangeth.

nonetheless...

can't wait for cuaron's version!

y tu magician tambien!


hehehe and this is so appropriate for today...

Congratulations you are Hermione Granger!


The sensitive muggle born girl with brains. Without Hermione, Harry and Ron would have to take their own notes!

What Harry Potter character are you?

blog of my life

it's almost three in the morning here in rooster crow-filled mapagkumbaba street in sikatuna village, good ol' kyusi. never mind the date -- i'm blogging on a monday morn here. damn US-based server! but i digress.

was checking out my friendster account while i was dowloading some game demos when i came upon a bulletin post by a long lost friend, announcing he has a live journal blog. so i checked it out. and i'm glad he's in blog-land. he's one guy i can rely on for honesty, i guess, in this poseur-magnet pastime called blogging. as in, comments ko lately sa isang blogger 'bakit ang lilinis niyong mag-blog?' para yatang masyadong conscious yung ibang bloggers sa mga words na ilalagay nila diyan (it's like they check 100x before posting a freaking entry!), lalo na yung mga newbies or those who are oh-so-quick to label themselves as 'writers' or aargh even 'artists' (insert horrific kuh@pagbabago 2001 flashback here -- ayan, kaya nasusunog ang repofmalate eh!>:). ewan. bibihira lang ang honest blogs around, and i count old pep-friend carlo's and my favorite vet kia's (yehei nabuhay ulit blog nya! mabuhei! thanks ulit sa tomb raider lunch box hihi) as honest. and nicely done. i also like the compound blog site of indi's and my other writer friends who are murakami fans. drew, a friend in geneva, also has one honest blog, but it's rather too honest for my, er, reading. but still, it's good.

me, i don't know how many times i tried blogging. started way back in '02, i think. i have one at the original blogger site, but i'm not sure if it's still there. besides, i didn't really bother updating that, but i liked the color of that the most (orangey autumny). then i made a second one there but that, too, i abandoned. then our global fil-wherever literary workshop group opened accounts in a site called diaryland, but that's just too cheesy for a blog, eh. i wanted a live journal when i saw kris aquino's lj years ago, but they were not free then. (free na now. should i?). this one here is the result of beta testing. the woman who runs this is a member of a writer's list i belong to, and she asked if anyone's interested to test it. so i signed up. i kept it, as you can see, since starting this last june '03. so that's cool. i made another one, however, at blog-city, but i haven't been able to update that much as i wanted to. love the color of that one better (orangey rin). i'm contemplating on changing this blog na because i hate that i can't change the colors, especially the black text on white appearance. alam mo namang light text on dark background typist ako. sa office na, nawi-weird-uhan sila sa interface ng computer ko, akala nga ni len i'm doing some coding daw (haha i wish! technoramus here).

well, speaking of coding, len also taught us dreamweaver stuff as being part of the office web team. now they're testing postnuke, drupal and other non-proprietary open-source thingies. i hope those npos stuff have blogs rin, para i can choose a new one with more options. kakatamad kasing mag-maintain ng sarili mong site kung according to dreamweaver ang option kong kukunin. saka the coding. ngyar. oh well...

we'll see.


earth to libay...

islandville is where i think i will more be, soon, but now it's just full of my fiction works and works-in-progress and rants/raves culturati reviews

dahondahon's digital domain is where we post literary works in progress for workshops with writer pals nadine sarreal, veronica montes, susan evangelista, marianne villanueva and the one who made this work cecilia manguerra brainard (hm, i think i forgot somebody but i can't remember, sorry po!)

necessary nonfictions
was an essay project of sorts, junked it na rin

leaflets is the mother of all chuvas, but not anymore...

catching up is hard to do

too bad that greek god quiz result didn't show up here. how come in other blogs you can put up these links and stuff? hm, must be some techie glitch, is all. hope i can still do that here in the future, because i also want to put here the result of the quiz "what angelina jolie character are you" hehe. guess who i am -- freaking gia! well, it's the lesbian part that did the trick there hehe. but i wanted to be lara croft! aw man! >:) hmmm, does that mean i am an openly non-apologetic bisexual supermodel candidate who has a tendency to be addicted to drugs? i hope not! hehe.

it's half past three in the hot scorching metro manila afternoon of this mild-mannered sunday here in the only catholic country in asia known as the philippines, or as the fil-ams call it, "P.I." adding the islands word. what time is it in your mindsphere?

but of course i will be like "blogging in the USA" here because as i discovered, the server of this blog is in the US, and thus there\'s a 12-hour delay. so as i'm writing this at 3.30pm, it's just like 3am or something there, so that's the time that this blog will reflect. kinda weird, isn't it? it's like i don't exist in real-time here. wow. that's a concept!

so as i try to update this blog, i am also trying to update my life. and my mp3 collection with THE L WORD music. yeah, season one is over but i really like the songs there, very chillout as i said in an earlier entry. but lately, i find myself missing that gay-thump-thump that emmet said he missed in QUEER AS FOLK. well, i'm missing that, too, that's why i am also downloading some thumping songs from the US version OST. also to be part of my nek's dj wannabee collection for our fantasy dance party here at home. hehe fantasy because we've been talking about it, lining up the music, thinking of stuff we will serve, but there's still no time or date for it. so it remains as such -- a fantasy. for now, that is. but hey, i still would love to dance!!!!!!!!!!!!! because i miss doing that.

so, to update my life, let's see. it's already may, so that means my birthmonth just passed, which means i just turned 31. freaking early 30s!!! that truly validates that i am no longer part of generation x. my, my, coupland, how time flies, eh? one moment you're wallowing in existential angst thinking of what life path you want to take as you "use and abuse" your gorgeously fit i-can-eat-anything-and-not-gain-weight mid-twenties body, the next moment you find yourself in the comfort of your complex life decisions while wondering why your butt is slowly showing the calories of last night's dinner. in short, you grow up.

but is it time to be adults now? could be, who knows, as tony sang. life changes fast that sometimes it's impossible to catch up with it. but you do manage to get along, experiencing some changes yourself, noticing the nuances of change all around you -- your family, friends, your work, how you have fun. they all change. no matter how we don't want them to change, they still do. they still do.

so what's a girl got to do? first, stop referring to your self (yourself? grammar police, help!) as a girl, but more as a woman. ugh, sounds so adult, doesn't it? don't you just hate it when people on the streets or in the stores now refer to you as "ma'am" instead of "miss"? i mean, what did i miss? hmm.

well, whatever. changes happen whether you like it or not. the thing to decide on is if you are willing to change along. or maybe it's better to choose the things that you want to change, and cherish those you want not to change. i can live with that. so can you.

L-shocked

and because it's still early and there's no one else here in our department room and the last 2 episodes of THE L WORD really got us locked up and wits torn limb by limb, i have to let it all out.

one word about the last episode of THE L WORD: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but it's cool. i mean, it's not cool that season one is finally over!!! wah!!! but it's cool that the last episode really let all bombs explode and kept us all hanging. talk about cliffhangers! lahat ng character meron! lahat ng situation meron! kakaiba! and yet exciting! di tulad sa QUEER AS FOLK na yung main storyline lang ang merong cliffhangers. even the subplots or the other support characters don't have one. dito sa mga girlash, iba eh! kaya doubly exciting! talagang ang mga biyaning oo, drama ng buhay ang habol! kaya maraming kuwento eh hehe. kaya marami ring naisusulat about it, about us, about everyone. di ba? kaya hapi.

pero teka inaantok ako. more later...

disengaged

do you have days when you feel so disengaged? like you're not attuned to your self, your own spirit, your own mind. like you're somewhere else yet you feel you're here. like you are not so together in work and at home. like you're hungry for something yet you don't know what it is. like you're tired of everything yet you want to do a million things. something like that. that's how i'm feeling right now, and i don't know why, i just feel it. does everything have to have an explanation? it's part of being disengaged - to be partially in the dark as you see some details illuminated by light coming from somewhere you don't know exactly where. am i making sense here? but that's also part of being disengaged, feeling a bit nonsensical, yet somewhere in the lattice of your mindframe things are clear -- they just don't have alphanumeric equivalents.

haay. or am i just hungry? too much exposure to the computer? not relaxing well lately? not getting anough sleep during the week and oversleeping during the weekends? not eating right? too much coffee, not enough water? not enough zuma deluxe playtime (darn free demos!)? maybe everything and all of the above.

argh.

so what is this? maybe my chakras have melted because of the damn heat here in april philippines. WOW! sabi nga ng tourism dept, wow talaga sa init! fuck! caucasians come here and spend your dollars visiting our beaches and ogling at our exotic asian offerings while you get your skin ugly freckled blotchy red with heat! tama yan! aah! clogged and energy channels ko kaya walang positive energy flow. not to mention medyo crazy ang balance ng aircon room tapos lalabas ka sa init part ng office then back sa aircon room. well, i shouldn't complain, my colleagues at the mezzanine area don't have the luxury of airconditioning, so i better be happy my butt is comfy cold as i work. peace, oed dudettes! :P

waaah or maybe haven't recovered from my recent hard drive loss, this time not the computer but my cellphone. as in, the near 500 entries there got wiped out. madali namang i-reconstruct most of them, but i'm grieving over the ones that are not so easy to retrieve, siguro near a hundred din, mga contacts made within the last 4 years. ngyak! the others i'm happy to lose as in happy talaga (perfect excuse!) heheh but oh well you win some you lose some, and then you grieve some, and then you live. tama pa rin si lola alanis, you live you learn talaga dude... wah.

hay. i want my mirinda strawberry slurpee. maintenant! at basa pa buhok ko. geez.
it's hot yet i'm wearing black. that's because i don't like wearing bras. and black hides the big stuff in front of me hehe. hay naku, to be a woman in this sweltering heat, and i'm due for the next period pa! wah. more heat! more sweltering! more liquids! what's this human body made of ba? i wish it were made of gulaman, or some life-form easier to manage. why do we have to ooze different kinds of liquid stuff kaya? of course i know the answer but hell, i'm just being rhetorical here. la lang... mainit eh.

live on air!

merrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrde!!!!!!!!!!! i don't think i can work right now so i'll just write an entry here first and let it all out.

had my first ever radio interview live on air earlier. was a guest in tina monzon palma's radio show at dzmm which of course is in the abscbn compound, which we really love to hate sometimes. but that's another blog entry altogether.

well anyway, the topic is about women and children's representation in media. i don't know how they heard of isis but in a way, i'm glad they did. mavic was supposed to be there with me but it's her daughter's graduation so of course no parent will miss that gig. so i was left all alone there, and indeed i was alone, as i found out i am the only guest for one whole freaking hour to talk about sexist ads, among other things. see, we at isis kasi created a protest letter-writing campaign about the napoleon quince brandy ad which reeks of sexist disgust talaga. read all about it at http://www.isiswomen.org/campaigns/alert/alert-4-Mar-2004.html. well anyway, basta, maybe it\'s because of that kaya kami nakontak ng taga-mm. akala ko naman isa lang ako sa mga guests, like maybe from different orgs and such, but no! ako lang pala ang sole! as in seule! guest! merde!

well anyway, i felt naman that i did an okay job, but you know how i am such a big critic of myself sometimes. i hope i made some sense there. i called up m to talk about it to her but she was kinda busy so i called up my mom who was able to catch the show pala. and that's how to cure insecurities sometimes, you know, call up your parents, and they were kinda beaming and proud and all. sabi pa daw ni papa na kaya pala bilib sa kin si ms. boots anson sa premiere dati heheh. well, i guess i really needed that boost in confidence, because as i said, i felt queasy inside after that conversation sa radyo. ewan. wala lang, i guess sometimes the inner introvert still comes out every so often. bad thing it had to come out now! shyet. merde. mierda.

why did i feel queasy? aside from the gulpe de gulat na ako lang pala ang guest for one freaking hour, man, yung mga tanungan namin kasi parang weird. or at least i found them weird. masyado kasi akong conscious sa fact na i am speaking there in behalf of isis, and i find that kinda hard to do pala. i mean, i'm used to being interviewed on print and even on tv pa nga, with my cutie fez in fron of da cam pa and all heheh, but the thing is, iba pala talaga if you\'re speaking on behalf of yourself kesa sa speaking in behalf of an organization. and with isis pa, medyo added pressure pala talaga yun, kasi of course even if i know the org already, sometimes it's quite hard to project and say yeah, this is what the org does or this is what the org thinks about this and that. i think i was very conscious of that talaga, at the risk of sounding repetitive here, pero wala, i'm letting it out nga eh di ba? so bear with me. hwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

well on the good side of this, i was able to meet my friend there who gives me our regular fix of THE L WORD. and i'm quite excited to watch this episode, because this is where the intrigue begins for the long-term couple!!!! shyet. oh well.

oh well. nuff about this. i guess i'm okay na. like i said in my ym status message: slurpee is the cure-all for when you feel blotchy! so i guess after downing half of the biggest gulp, i'm okay na. haaaaay...wot a day. and it's not even finished yet! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

that certifies one thing: stardom ain't for me talaga hahahahaha so it was a nice decision to stay behind the scenes hehehehheheheee. what am i talking about? abangan sa susunod na mga blogs (kung maalala kong ikuwento. or remind me! at dahondahon@hotmail.com)